As i stare at the empty skies. i see nothing but layers and layers of darkness dwelling upon the twinkling light of a little lonely star. It seemed that the thick darkness was in search of light. With no moon to give birth to and no stars to give life to. The beauty of the skies have vanished. the pride and vanity were also lost. The sky is nothing without the moon. just like me.. Im no one without you..
The emptiness in the skies feels so close to my heart. No wonder they say " distance makes a heart grow fonder." i have never felt such loneliness in my life. its as if my whole life has torn into pieces.
I closed my eyes. my heart was aching. i felt lifeless. Just like the gloomy skies without the moon to give its life. I realised..I missed you so much. much more than i thought i would.. It was painful.. Cold tears started crawling down my warm cheeks. I couldn't bear it. I wish i could scream and tell the world about my sorrows. But it was useless. Useless like crying for the moon, hoping the cries would bring it back.
The wind was blowing softly.. messing my hair.. stripes of hair covered my face. i felt cold. I wish you were with me to make me feel warm. i guess i can only wish and keep on wishing until someday that it might possibly come true.. and you will be beside me to comfort me. How many moonless nights do i have to spend without you, i wondered. I sighed as i looked down on the ground..
The sweet fragrance of jasmine flowers disturbed my thoughts for a while. My fingertips reached to the smallest jasmine flower. I softly touched its smooth petals. Feeling its softness embrace my heart..
I closed my eyes.. I remembered the way you held my fingers in the same way and placed them in yours. you reached up to the moon. It was a full moon that night., so white and round. You drew my fingers around the moon so lovingly, so tenderly.. Like a mother trying to make her blind child relise the shape of the moon. You told me that i will never forget that day. You were right. I didnt. And i never will..
Im standing in the same place today, starring into the same sky.. But the moon is no longer there and you are no longer here. Still i feel so close to you. the same way the sky feels closer to the moon. I looked up.. The sky was still empty and was still waiting for the moon. The lonely little star was also there, but it can never take the place of the moon. The sky doesn't have to be without the full moon much longer, it was certain for the moon to shine once a month. The white, silky rays of the silver moon would spread its magic vanishing the emptiness of the night sky.
But I.. How long do i have to wait.. till you give me life. the silver moon will shine upon the thirsty skies very soon. But when will my moon shine upon my dark skies. I can't say.. I can only patiently wait.. with nothing but endless hope to make me strong...

Lakdinee Samarasekera